i pretty much suck.

life is such a sad thing sometimes.
and when things aren't going the way you wanted them to go,
you begin to realise you're nothing more than a frail leaf
being blown about so strongly by the winds of uncertainty.

what makes it worse,
is that we aren't very wise.
and we tend to make mistakes that end up with us
losing those we cherish the most.

those that keep us warm when the coldest of gales blow,
those that stand by us when the hottest of droughts come by,
and put simply,
those that have been with us through it all.

after some time we change,
and we think that we can go on by ourselves,
and we fall from the branches holding us up,
only to get trampled on the ground beneath.

i've made a multitude of mistakes in my life,
some i will forever regret.
but like a leaf trampled on the ground,
there is no way things will ever be the same as before i fell.

i guess its pretty much my own to blame,
and for that,
i pretty much despise myself.
what an idiot i must be.