I doubt you will read this, or by the time you do you would have probably forgotten about me. But this one's for you..

Memories of you drift through my mind as i live this pathetic excuse of a life and now everything i'm doing and everything i've done just doesn't seem to add up. I'm not proud of what I've done and I would do anything to take it all back. I know you have him now. And I know its too late for me and all hope is gone, but I just hope you know I've never stopped loving you, I still do, and I always will. I know you're too caring to say it straight to me, but from what I've heard from you, you've made it very clear, and I know that that 'someday' will never come again. Irregardless, I will still wait as long as I can for you and hope that I may be wrong about what you really mean.


Monday, April 30, 2007

Theres something that many people think they have, but few are likely to find out what it really is and why it was ever created...

What is it?
its something thats indescribable.

something like the breeze that blows gently across your cheeks everyday, invisible to you and me, but still there.

its something that runs through your veins, as though it has been there ever since the day you were born.

get a thousand of the best writers in the world, or even the poets of Greece, but none would ever know how to express themselves to you.

maybe a singer or two may know what it is, but they wont be able to sing it for you.

even a dancer would not be able to twirl you into understanding the simplicity of it.

but thats where i come in.
thats why im here.
and the faint image of what it really is slowly appears.

im just hoping that you won't forget why i've been holding on to you.


I guess I will never get to make the last sentence come true, but in here, I've never let you go. And now, memories are all that I have to try and figure out what the thing ever was. Or I may not find out at all. No matter how this will all end, I love you and you will always be here in my heart.